Your story of Experience, Strength and Hope:
Hi, Today is my 50th day in recovery in SLAA. I live in Madrid where there´s no SLAA meetings. I have 4 years 6 months of AA recovery but I don´t feel like sharing this sex and love addiction in AA meetings, so the only person that Im in contact is my SLAA sponsor in another part of Spain. I never met her its only a voice telling me that SLAA Program works.
Sometimes is so hard to believe that I´m going to recover my dignity, create a true relationship with myself and my Higher Power. I have no idea whom I´m going to be in the future. The only thing I know is that I was desperate, wanting to die, my life was unmanageable and I had tried everything before I got to SLAA. Im working the program every single day with daily phone calls to my sponsor, Im praying. Im in the point that Im not able to act out (bottom lines), sometimes I dont feel any progress and I dont have examples near me to see progress in others. I dont know who I am. I´ve been psychically sick, I know that all this emotional changes are reflecting in my body. I feel invisible, ugly and not worth it.
But the only thing that Im sure is that I dont want to feel crazy as before, It was very painful and I wanted to kill myself. I need to get in contact with women to be encourage and to listen about stories in the solution.