Hi, After years of not knowing what’s wrong with me I’ve finally found a counsellor that has identified that I’m not just needy, I actually have love addiction.
I’m due to stay at a therapy centre soon for two weeks and a big part of continuing what I’m doing there is attending meetings when I come out, so I have been reading up on what to expect.
I know I’m jumping the gun a bit but I know step 9 is where you make amends. I already know there are two ex’s that I would need to bear in mind with this process but the thought of contacting them to do this is making me feel a bit strange.
I’m scared that my compulsive, fantasising behaviour will rear it’s ugly head and mean that I will start wishing the most recent ex will see I’ve changed and want me back. I’m already thinking this may happen even though I know it won’t.
Is it normal that I’m thinking like this and will the going to group help so by the time I’m at this step I can make amends with no expectation, it will just be making amends? I’m starting to feel like I’ve failed before I’ve even started 🙁 Any words of wisdom will be greatly appreciated Thanks