Just want to share this and say ... keep believing in yourself and keep coming back - 12 step are a perfect foundation to begin our new life's and it is progress not perfection... I will always have to work on this stuff .... 
 
always trust in your intuition and believe in yourself!!! :) 

my dad was a violent alcoholic, and my mum had to kick him out when i was 2 years old..i think that must of destroyed me, as he was my everything violent or not...he was probably my first love addiction.

I´m rising again after two weekends through them I realized how my faith was breaking in little particles...
fortunatelly (This is a very weak confortation) I did not involve people into execrable sexual acts...I have stayed alone...But my mind has played with my will...
 

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference".

I´m living in Colombia, however I´d like to hold this conversations on english language, in the paragraphs below I will explain why I´m proposing this requirement...
You will realize that this is not my native language. 

 
Hi, Today is my 50th day in recovery in SLAA. I live in Madrid where there´s no SLAA meetings. I have 4 years 6 months of AA recovery but I don´t feel like sharing this sex and love addiction in AA meetings, so the only person that Im in contact is my SLAA sponsor in another part of Spain. I never met her its only a voice telling me that SLAA Program works.

HAVE YOU GOT A LIGHT?

My name is Patric and I am a sex, love and fantasy addict. I found SLAA just 3 months ago, after finding myself in the car at 4am one morning, en route to try and find the new man in my ex partner's life; gripped by a mental obsession with a power that I never knew existed until that night.