I feel terrible - I've been sober again for just over two weeks now. I'm working step ten. I'm back at college next week and full of fear. I feel dreadful but know using sex wont fix me. Yesterday I cried for the first time in 5 years - that was when Ifirst entered sLAA. I still haven't had long sobriety. I am told it is tough and not like my AA which was taken from me instantly. My life is getting better in many ways - I am learning a bit more to reach out - I find it very hard to pick up the phone. I attend at least one meeting a week but know I need to do more again.  Emails gratefully received [address removed by moderator, presumably forum access is available or user couldn't post] this is easier for me than this Forum as I have internet protection on my computer. Higher Power please help me through the day.x