I feel a little stupid here because I am embarassed that I am a love addict
- I didn't see that one coming at all (self diagnosed last week after answering YES to over 2/3 of the 40 questions on two Love Addicts Anonymous sites.) - I thought this guy I have been emotionally involved with was just a one off
rare thng I would never do or witness again. And when falling for this new guy once the other relationship ended after 3 years it
got me researching this desire and need to fall in love and be loved
and read all the syptoms which go back to your childhood it made me
analyse my relationship​s before my husband (who I have been with for 8 years) which I guess I just never looked
at it in that way before. So here I am a married woman, never unfaithful physically/sexually but most certainly emotionally.

And now I'm on a recovery site asking for an indirect opinion about an addiction I am trying to accept of having and yet I don't want to recover from it because even though these relationships are painful (and unfair to my unknowing husband) they are also the most amazing feelings I've ever had. I know I have the addiction (at least a form of it) but I guess it's
still all a bit of a shock you know - in the past when I see these
people who are diagnosed with a love/sex addiction etc I laughed saying ah
it's just their excuse to have extra marital affairs but now I'm one of
them (obviously not with the sex but certainly with emotions and I can't rule out the temptation that may come with this new emotional relationship). I'm ashamed of how deluded I was to think that these addictions didn't really exist and well here I am.